Another Post

     I havn't posted on here for a while, and well it's better off that way. I have recently came to the realization that i'm no longer the nice person i used to be, though i might be a little more passive, but i think i have become more bitter torwards people. I am starting to feel more and more hate torwards myself. Not as in the sad i hate my life type of hate. but as in the i'm almost 23 years old and i am the reason i am in the position that i'm in right now, and for the first time in my life i'm not exactly sure how to get out. I might have started that quest though, i got a job. It's not much (Bill's BBQ) but hey i can walk to work and it pays the bills. I also got my trip to jail out of the way (which i never plan to go back again EVER!). All i have to say about that is, DON'T DRINK AND DRIVE KIDDYS! And as for relationships, i'm still not over a preticular girl, she knows who she is, and well that whole thing is well.....frustrating, confusing, and just down right cruel sometimes, but i love her, and i can't help how i feel so fuck it. Well taht pretty much sums up everything that i want you people to know, but i will leave you with some old school Green Day lyric that pretty much sum up how i feel right now.

"Who Wrote Holden Caulfield?"

A thought burst in my head and I need to tell you
It's news that I for thought
Was it just a dream that happened long ago?
I think that I just forgot

Well it hasn't been the first time
And it sure does drive me mad

There's a boy who fogs his world and now he's getting lazy
There's no motivation and frustration makes him crazy
He makes a plan to take a stand but always ends up sitting.
Someone help him up or he's gonna end up quitting

I shuffle through my mind
To see if I can find
The words I left behind
Was it just a dream that happened long ago?
Oh well...
Never mind.

Well it hasn't been the first time
And it sure does drive me mad

There's a boy who fogs his world and now he's getting lazy
There's no motivation and frustration makes him crazy
He makes a plan to take a stand but always ends up sitting.
Someone help him up or he's gonna end up quitting

"Rest"

Hey can you hear me?
I'm calling your name
hello? Or is this goodbye?
The gleam in your eyes
It troubles my brain
Will I see it again?
So I can rest my head

Angel...Angel! Dancing away
As all of my thoughts get rearranged
Angel...Angel! Turning away
Just when thing seem
To have changed
So I can rest my head

Hey can you hear me?
I'm calling your name
hello? Or is this goodbye?
The gleam in your eyes
It troubles my brain
Will I see it again?
So I can rest my head

"One For The Razorbacks"

Juliet's trying to find out what she wants, but she don't know
Experience has got her down
Look this direction, I know it's not perfection, it's just me...
I want to bring you up again now

Cause' I'm losing what's left of my dignity
A small price to pay to see that you're happy
Forget all the disappointments you have faced
Open up your worried world and let me in

Juliet's crying cause now she's realizing love can be
Filled with pain and distrust
I know I am crazy, and a bit lazy
But I will try to bring you up again now

Cause' I'm losing what's left of my dignity
A small price to pay to see that you're happy
Forget all the disappointments you have faced
Open up your worried world and let me in

Juliet's crying cause now she's realizing love can be
Filled with pain and distrust
I know I am crazy, and a bit lazy
But I will try to bring you up again some how

Cause' I'm losing what's left of my dignity
A small price to pay to see that you're happy
Forget all the disappointments you have faced
Open up your worried world and let me in

Currently Listening Pizza By Horse the Band see related

Off To Take My 10 Day Vacation.....YAY

Mike Fucks Up Once Again

As some of you know i will probably be spending some quality time in jail because i managed to hit a telephone pole with a dodge neon going over 60 mph and then flipping the car atleast twice thus the only thing saving my life was the seat belt which left a huge gash across my chest not to mention head, foot, rib and other misc injurys. all this happened because of my known weakness "Alcohol" i was drunk. I never realized how bad i was nor how dangerous it was till i about died when i woke up and the doctor said i was ;ucky to be alive, and he didnt know how i survived because my golf clubs destroyed everything else inside the car but managed to miss me. But everyone should read this and i know that alot of you do drive drunk sometimes  "oh no i'm fine man" fuck that let someone else drive you dont know what it can do to your friends and family, for i'm lucky i'm not sitting in a casket right now. But if you want to see me, i have court Thursday morning and i'm guessing i will get 30 days. Hope to hear from some of you, and dont drink and drive its not worth it.

Look I Posted

     Ok, i decided to write on here, i havnt for a while and well....that is probably the best. Life now is well....confusing, meaningless, and well i right now am not doing anything constructive to improve it. But thats ok because i'm not planning anything big yet and things will work out eventually, when the time is right. As for relationships, i am well just here, not really looking for anyone, and the one person i keep looking back to, keeps making not want anyone for a while, not that she is preticularly doing anything wrong, just i seem to let myself be vulnerable when i shouldn't. And well maybe i should get out more, and meet some more people my own age in Zanesville, it seems like i only hang out with older or younger people, and all the ones my age that i actually can stand either move/live far away, or shoved up their significant others ass.

    Life around my house has got worse as well, my dumbass little brother somehow got out of jail and he keeps threatening to send my ass to jail if i touch him, i would pay someone to do bodily harm to that kid. he is everything in a human being that i hate, and it would be for the better of the world if he dissapeared, that would be one less muniplative, theiving, lying, mouthy, immature, drug addict. it would just be great to see him go far, far away for a while, i know this makes me look pretty bad for saying this about my own brother, but if you met him you would full heartedly agree.

    Well i'm going to end this page of non coherant ramblings and go out side and cook a streak, if anyone is interested we are having a cook out around 7:30 just give me a call and come out if you wish. 252-8735 or 450-8635

FIGHT CLUB

Fight Club Returns

Fight Club This Saterday, this is a no worry about cops showing up, there should be a fire going on and people are more than welcome to have a few hotdogs/whatever as long as there is NO ALCOHOL (amazing coming from me eh) but anyways i'm holding this at one of my moms properties so that means pretty much just dont destroy shit and be respectable even though no one will be there. This is being held approx 15 min from the mall off 555 i will post more info later and here is the address

anywhere after 10pm fights start at 12am

5780 Center Rd. (555)

Philo (more of south Zanesville)

IF YOU ARE INTERESTED IN FIGHTING  JUST LET ME KNOW WE WILL TRY AND GET SOMETHING SET UP!!!

if there are anymore questions call me at 252-8735 or 453-3679